I have just spent the last 20 minutes crying because i realise that he has never loved anyone the way he loves me. As damaging as he has been, he has loved me all he could.
It's odd but i have had to travel down this long painful, complicated road only to come back to where i started in life with him, except as a different person. I have been looking back lately, as an emancipated woman now, and wondering if i rushed into marriage for the wrong reasons, if i sold myself out.
But i can't imagine a more beautiful life than caring for and loving a man who genuinely needs me and on my deathbed knowing that i loved him the best i could against all odds..and that because of me, he had a LIFE, and a GOOD one..and my life would have been worth every breath i took loving him despite each and every setback ~
Yes.
ReplyDeleteAnd do you understand that a bipolar person is living between the worlds? That the way of being bipolar is Wu Wei? And that we're a different breed of human being, and it's not your fault?
Of course you understand, or you wouldn't have been able to love as deeply as you have. If anything, you bring the gift of your understanding... Which is more than most can do. It makes you a Saint, really! XOX!
probably because i was one step away from being bipolar myself..except i never became ill to discover my gift, but jumped straight into using the gift instead
ReplyDeleteso i understand the living between worlds..but haven't the complete insight into the journey of going through the BP to get to the gift..
but you are doing that for me here..what a blessing xoxo